When our greatest fear comes to be, hope is what we grasp. Hope of healing, healing through many ways. Healing from Crohn's but even deeper than the disease. Can there be more than the physical to bring the healing?
The journey has really begun for us this time. This time is real, this time he (who I will begin to call Brave) has accepted the fact that Crohn's is a part of him. Brave tried to hide, tried to run from it. It has been 10 years since Brave was diagnosed. And it has taken 10 years to really face the ugliness of Crohn's.
I was not there in the beginning. I came into Brave's life in the middle. And now I think the beginning has begun.
I will begin with last week. The appointment was already made, the colonoscopy was for Thursday Morning. When I say morning I mean early, 7 am. Most know the preparation for the "borescope" is everything but fun. I got the call on Tuesday evening. I was out running errands. Brave called, said he was not feeling well. I am use to hearing those words. I have learned that this disease seems to never stop causing some type of pain. The second call came and I knew Brave was in real pain. Normally he does not ask for my help. Brave was pleading for relief. He needed me to be there with him. This was scary, but I stayed positive. Trying to not let fear come in, because Brave was not strong enough to chase it away. Brave is a strong man, 6'1". He was in so much pain. His stomach was bloated as if he were carrying a baby. Then the vomiting begun. This went on all night for Brave. Was this food poisoning or was this an obstruction? Do you believe in the power of prayer? Prayer for someone to get rid of what is blocking the way? Pray that asked God to clear the way. Thank God Brave made it through and whatever was in the way came out for that night anyway.
Friday, January 25, 2008
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